the good left undone

The days turn to weeks and seasons pass in the blink of an eye. With all the time that passed I think myself got left behind.
I don't want to look at my reflection and not recognize the person staring back at me. But I'm getting scared because with each day gone it feels like there's nothing left of what I used to be.
I couldn't tell you exactly when I just gave up. When I let the apathy get the best of me and I stopped giving a fuck. And now I feel so useless, can't dig myself out of this rut.
Complacency occupies the space that my passions used to take up. I don't want to look at my reflection and not recognize the person staring back at me.
But I'm getting scared because with each day gone it feels like there's nothing left of what I used to be. No, I won't let this get the best of me.
No, I can't let this get the best of me. No, I'm not dead yet. No, I can't turn away when I've still got so much left to say.

new post.

new new new new new!

i suppose .. 21 doesnt really mean much.
my spirits are abit higher recently. ive had the courage to meet new people again, but theres always a nagging thought in the back of my head. get out!


BOSTON! was amazing. i would kill to live in the city. its the perfect mix of arts and culture, and there is just so many interesting oddities about it. tay and i both stayed at the liberty hotel, gorgeous! it had the old time architectural charm of 1930s boston. I had the once-in-lifetime chance to indulge in the in-house spa. i know why they call it a 'spa'.. because its a 'sp-ahhhhh!'

jokes! =D jessie brought me to an upscale neighbourhood, in a loft which held private cosmetic/skincare sales. of course, I had to stock up on my la prairie and la mer creams. ive been hooked since my first slather at age 13. teehee! upon arrival, there was an incredible amount of snow everywhere! ive never seen so much snow in the middle of march, believe me..some piles were taller than most of you! i'm glad we had a driver and a town car with us so we didnt have to face the unknown transit system!

I found the perfect pair of charcoal grey suede sigerson morrison boots, and alas..my absentmindedness ruined them all within an hour of putting them on. seriously, the salt there is like formaldehyde! swiggles of white lines are the perfect result of suede dipping in saltwater. i might just have to dye them black. =(

i wish i spent more time in boston, i'll definately be back soon. theres so much more of the city to take in and so many more experiences!

i finally received my lust-worthy bag: the miu miu vitello lux in grey. made of supple buttery goatskin, its almost as soft as the recent coach leather gloves. its the perfect bag for every occasion thus far. im such a sucker for anything miu miu.


another thing! im really digging OPI's Russian Navy. its the perfect amount of inky blue, but not as dark as black satin. the colour varies depending on light/angle. if i were to do them myself, i'd layer with a black first. delicious!! =D

i can't wait to finish painting my room. i originally allocated time this week to paint, but with exams and vacation in the way i dont have much time anymore! ps. primer sucks!

if weather permits, i will have a stroll down west fourth and check out the gravity pope sale.
ive been eyeing on a pair of marc wellingtons, but $170 does seem pretty ridiculous for made in china plastic. we'll see! =]