i am so bored in this thing called 'life'.

there is no motivation left for me, no catalyst to at least thrust me into being what a 19 y/o should be. i dont belong anywhere i suppose. not a drone in the working world, nor a student.

i feel i should be kicked off this planet, im just wasting resources.

im drowning in melancholy thoughts that plague me, the only thing that helps is falling into a deep slumber..even so it catches up and finds me in my sleep.